Hey my lovelies ♥ (I feel like this greeting is becoming a thing, so I'm going to roll with it lol)
The other evening I had a friend of my partners over for a few beers, and we engaged in a conversation about relationships. I've been with my partner for over 15 years and yes, like any couple we do have our ups and downs. However, over the last few years my anxiety has been through the roof, and most of the time I hide this from everyone including my partner, but that doesn't mean they don't know, I've told them all before but I still have to take this crap.
So, we were talking about relationships and how we engage with each other when we're out, and I'm not going to lie this has got my back up because when we're out I'm quiet and often very reserved. I mean sure after a few glasses of alcohol I'll loosen up, and my confidence skyrockets. However, my partner is one of those to get on with everybody, he will disappear and talk to others, he will make new friends, and I'm often sitting alone in the corner with my drink in hand just observing everybody around me. What the heck has it got to do with anybody else? our relationship is for us only, I don't need to be told how to improve anything, that's our business, not yours.
Now my partner's friend had the cheek to belittle me when he knows full well that I suffer anxiety, I've told him many times in the past, and he just totally disregarded my feelings by telling me I'm just too shy, and I should go around and act as my partner does. He also went on to say that I should be more confident, and get up and join in, I'm not anxious I'm just shy, maybe I should snap out of it then maybe all our problems would be solved. I felt so pissed off with this advice. It's as if he's blaming me for everything and sort of saying that I'm bringing my partner down by being so quiet all the time. I sat in silence, shocked by what he was saying. I got a little angry at this point, and I advised him that all our issues are not due to this, and it's in no way all my fault. My partner understands how I feel and has never said anything like this, well that's what I think anyway he could be talking about this behind my back, who knows, and if that's the case, the decent thing to do would be to tell me.
So here's a big F***k you to all you anxiety shamers out there.
So do you think he's right??? have I overreacted??? feel free to tell me if I'm wrong
Comment below I'd love to hear your opinions.
stay safe xoxo
The answer to us living with anxiety was in plain sight all this time, thank goodness dude was around to tell you to just be confident. He has single-handedly solved the issue and all the research, data, expert studies and mental health professionals can just pack up and be done. Well done to that dude. So amazing. *heavy sarcasm*
ReplyDeleteI am sorry you were subjected to that, he sounds really annoying and I hope he learns something about anxiety and its impacts so he doesn't say this BS again.